So much on my mind, can’t sleep. There are specifically two things on my mind; present day concepts of respect, and my relationship with other Indians/South Asians. Respect is something very few people show for one another these days without some kind of “worthy” merit (class, money, fame, race etc). I just dont understand why “respect must be earned.” although it makes sense in some ways, it degrades the entire concept of kindness among all creatures. I truly think in the process of disrespecting another, you ultimately disrespect yourself as well, by proving to be a cold hearted individual, assimilating to a darwinistic society. Why isn’t respect required? Why is it not a basic humanistic quality to treat each other like actual deserving human beings? What brings this to mind is that growing up Indian, we are always taught that our elders deserve the utmost respect. I just don’t see that here, in Georgia, among our Indian population. I absolutely don’t believe in ageism or it’s hierarchy, however, one must recognize the paths people have taken and the life they’ve seen thus far. At the very least, dont we owe everyone respect as humans; humans who have feelings and make mistakes. I cannot speak for other cultures, but just knowing what kind of concepts of respect have been taught from generation to generation of Asians, it’s almost heartbreaking to see how us, as Asian youth, are loosing our culture, to an assimilatory one. It hurts me to see what little of a community we have here, turn into an elitist social structure, where attitude and rudeness are accepted socially and more importantly within oneself. Which brings me to my relationship with other south Asians. I’ve been wondering why I don’t seem to feel comfortable or secure within my relationships with other south Asians. I finally answered it after 23 years. Because I am measured by what I can do for the opposite person. People come to me when they need something, or need a connection, or want something for free, or need help of some sort. To a certain extent that is fine, but after a certain point, you start to measure your self worth by the ways in which others utilize you. I’m starting to feel as though the only ways to avoid total inferiority and belittlement is to abandon all regard for human life and care mostly about myself. Is that the choice I have to make? Thus far I’ve always chosen inferiority over selfishness, but I’m starting to see the other side, the greener side if u must………..
“So many people live within unhappy circumstances and yet will not take the initiative to change their situation because they are conditioned to a life of security, conformity, and conservatism, all of which may appear to give one peace of mind, but in reality nothing is more dangerous to the adventurous spirit within a man than a secure future. The very basic core of a man’s living spirit is his passion for adventure. The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun.” Christopher McCandless”—